thank you everyone, interesting comments...of course no one ever hearing your music is a bit unrealistic but that's not the point and I can think of some scenarios where one might not share their music or have someone to share it with...still unlikely.
For instance, covers...I haven't done one in years but sometimes I do a cover of a song I liked or played back in the day
and I think they can be a good yardstick for gauging growth. But covers and the internet is not really a good idea, I record covers for my listening only (but I have shared them). Of course I'll play them for Denise (maybe) but not for many other people. If someone comes here and wants to hear me I would hope they want to hear my creations. If they are a fellow musician we would likely be jamming, but rarely will you hear me say "wanna hear my music?" If someone asks, sure...otherwise I do not force it on people.
I am also not one of those guys who has to play his guitar for everyone that walks in the door, rarely do I have people over. The complex I live in is going downhill fast, I really do not want people knowing what I have in here. In 4 years here at this apartment (actually 4 years on 7/7) 3 time have I had a fellow musician here, all three times guitar players. All three times they were more interested in playing with my gear than I was interested in playing for them (which is typical of me and not an issue).
I finish and share songs when I tire of playing them, it would shock people to know how many takes of a song I will do on guitar. I really dont have to record it every time of course but I still do because I can. The last song's folder is about 32 or 34gig.
I also think we all need to accept that when we see a play count on our songs online many of those plays are just for 30 seconds or less.
So is it realistic? Well, all the years, all the takes, and the few songs I have posted suggests to me that if I have shared like .1% at best of all the music I have recorded and if you factor in the fact that often the whole song doesn't always get listened to it could be like .05% of the music I have created has been heard (keep in mind I have not been in a band since 1987). So 99.9% or 99.95% is close enough for me to say without a doubt I would keep making music whether anyone heard it or not. I play to bring my heart and soul peace, perhaps someday some else might find peace in my music as well but that's not why I write it.
Actually that happened once, a good friend I met on the FL forums was having a biopsy and sent me a PM here from the hospital asking for a link to one of songs while they waited and it did bring them peace. I dont think there is a better compliment than that