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Caleb · Post by **Caleb** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 6:51 pm

a : who am i / what have i done ...

My real name is Patrick - born in London in 1972 but have lived in Australia nearly all my life.

I was educated in Catholic schools including 6 years in a Catholic boys boarding school so naturally I'm an atheist. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="wink.gif" />

Never came to grips with university life I continually struggled with motivation and dropped out of every degree I started (I think that was 3).

Had strong bouts of depression and was completely envious for a while of completely shallow thoughtless pigs who probably had a pretty easy self-congratulating life while I was stuck thinking all the time and understanding what I was missing.

Worked as a contractor because I was adaptable enough to drop into almost any role but had no clue what I wanted my career to be. Had dreams of being an actor, singer/songwriter, poet but I couldn't stand the idea of making such a risky all-or-nothing investment in my own talent - came from hating myself so much I guess.

Have had absolutely no success in relationships with basically nothing lasting over 2 weeks. Wasn't helping my miserable self-esteem much.

Strangely enough, with all this stupid self-imposed misery, I didn't become a hard drug addict. In fact, I have remained completely hard-drug free the whole time. I should probably thank myself for that small piece of accidental wisdom.

b : what do i do at the moment ...

I work as a Business Analyst/Project Management blah blah role for an IT company. I actually love my work and have found myself very proficient in the IT Management area. In a way, you could say I tripped over and fell into a career. I still have no formal qualifications but I found and industry that doesn't seem to pedantically insist on them.

I also write music and poetry on the side and I would like to become a freelance composer having just a couple of compositions which have worked out.

I still have probably the worst luck with relationships. People kinda meet me and leave almost straight away. I always knew I was a little different. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="redface.gif" />

I am now much happier with myself and with life. I still know I'm different and tend to think too much, but I tend to celebrate it now rather than hate myself for it.

c : what is my goal in life ...

I really want to fly. Somehow I just can't imagine going through this life without working it out. I won't accept that it's not possible and I will find a way somehow.

I would also like to find a partner to share my life with. I don't feel it as quite the burning need I used to. But then again, I don't need someone else in my life to distract me from hating myself anymore. But I'd like that intimate "connectedness" that comes with that relationship. I have something very close to it with a couple of friends, but I'm looking for that bit extra.

I'm not a family person at all so that is certainly not a dream.

d : i am interested in ...

Reading - science fiction, fantasy, horror. In fact, I'll really read almost anything fiction if it's good and recommended by someone. Something happens to me when I read. I suddenly lose my body completely and just become the story.

Movies - Lose myself easily with this one too. Love science fiction, horror (particularly with vampires), fantasy, action. I'm a movie lover I guess.

Singing - not trained by my singing's not too bad. It's fun expressing myself that way.

Poetry - I love reading back my poems and filling the appropriate emotional pang that most of my poetry is trying to trigger

Thinking - almost an addiction for me. I used to think the best job for me would be someone paying me to just sit there and come with ideas...for anything: song titles, plot concepts, corporate policies, radio jingles. And then those ideas could be taken away and developed by someone with more staying power.

Beaches in Winter - sorry, just love them.

Romance - can ya tell? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="biggrin.gif" />

MUSIC - I love writing music

Talking - I always have the need to express myself. There's many ways of doing it and talking's one of those ways for me

Spiritualism - I really enjoy reading and thinking about spiritual beliefs. I'm quite fond of some native American Indian beliefs, Druidry and some of the Norse spiritualism. I also like reading about Kabbalah, Astral Projection and Meditation and Occultism etc. Not much into prediction too much though, but I don't mind using tools like Runes (for eg.) to try and harness some synchronicity.

Boring KVRers with endless ramblings about my life and thoughts - 'Nuff said.

Emerald Tablet · Post by **Emerald Tablet** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 7:08 pm

<blockquote>quote:<hr />No worries PU. Got any Mp3s?

You probably wouldn't like any of mine :-D
<hr /></blockquote>yup ...it's in the July contest thread
I would like to hear yours
I can listen through the evangelistic gospel part.
I can just listen to the drums and baseline and stuff and let the words be mindless mumbles in my head <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="smile.gif" />

Emerald Tablet · Post by **Emerald Tablet** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 7:11 pm

hey Patrick ... what's your zodiac sign ? ... you forgot that one <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="smile.gif" />
lovely to see all the similarities between all of us

Caleb · Post by **Caleb** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 7:14 pm

<blockquote>quote:<hr />Originally posted by Poweruser:
hey Patrick ... what's your zodiac sign ? ... you forgot that one <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="smile.gif" />
lovely to see all the similarities between all of us<hr /></blockquote>Sorry Remco. I'm a Libran.
Birthday - 25th September.

hakushi · Post by **hakushi** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 7:20 pm

who am i?

who am i i feel no pain,
could it be i've gone insane?

sorry just had to paste that.

im a 29yr old hobbyist from the netherlands
torturing my neighbours from a little amature recording setup in my attic. used to play in a punk band which broke up in 1990. left music for what it was for about ten years to focus on a grafiti hobby and since 2000 found ways to make sounds with the machine from hell(computer)
style i focus on now is: nin, ministry, fearfactory.

right now im just playing around, trying to find and create new sounds, mutulating guitar samples to noise, distorting many drum sounds and annoying people with what i find cool and the find horrible noise.

my goal in life is to convince people that music is a way to relax and enjoyment and not a meaning of making a quick buck, with horrible cheap dance compositions with no originality.

interested in: original bands, or just people who make sounds that i can relate to,like aphex twin, infected mushroom, fearfactory(rip) and my ruin.

sorry u had to read this all,

hakushi

Emerald Tablet · Post by **Emerald Tablet** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 7:30 pm

hee teistert ...makker

waar in ons koude kikkerlandje is jouw stulpje gevestigd ?

ik ben een kluizenaar in de polder
altijd op zoek naar plaatsen waar geen mensen te vinden zijn ... waar niemand uit zijn bek stinkt en waar niemand met idiote oranje kronen op hun hoofd loopt.

Ik ben alleen bang dat emigratie de enige oplossing is om mijn naargeestige neerwaarts draaiende cilindrische levenscyclus te doorbreken.

heb je veel muziekshit of beperkt je thuisstudiootje zich tot een vierkant kassie ?

tabe ... remco de pemko

iDavid · Post by **iDavid** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 7:56 pm

My Turn

David I am,

I am 36 and was born in California. Moved around a lot as a kid, but always ended up back in California.

I have been a social worker, child therapist, and ran a foster care agency. I didn’t really like any of it very much.

Now I am living in Germany teaching American children of Americans in the military. However, I’m not really a big fan of the military, but I love to travel so here I am. I have to say the military parents are some of the most active and caring people I’ve come across. Life is always surprising me.

I really love teaching. I only teach the little kids (6 to 8), because they are easier to kick really far.

I played keyboards and sang in a few bands, which never went anywhere, well my garage.

Ten years back, I would write a song every few days until I just plain QUIT. I started playing African hand-drums instead. Then picked up the guitar.

I bought a Mac a year ago and was drawn in by the VST revolution. I really am enjoying now.

I married about a year and a half ago to a woman from Holland, who I met in California. Talk about a long distance relationship. She is wonderful and I could not be any luckier or happier.

My goal in life is to be happy and help others around me be happy as well.

I’m interested in music and travel. I also have started a children’s book, but never seem to get around to working on it. I blame music.

I was born Feb 21 which makes me a Pisces

Not a religious person but somewhat on the spiritual side. I have a strong faith in my fellow man and woman, which may make me the odd one out at times.

Oh I also have a very cool rat-dog.

Bonteburg · Post by **Bonteburg** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 8:06 pm

11th August.... Leo here

Rooarrrio,
Marco

hakushi · Post by **hakushi** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 8:14 pm

hey remco,

ik woon in die mooie stad achter de duinen....
oftwel, ik moest ook maar eens emigreren binnenkort....

tis heel beperkt hier op zolder,
billgates'kassie of doom,
paar sintjes (darkstar, ea1,k1m,poly 800,dx21,juno60)
en wat gitaartjes (clone stratje en een gibson explorer)

de gebruikelijke vstjes en progjes om het aan te vullen, en klooien maar.....

iDavid · Post by **iDavid** » Thu Jul 25, 2002 8:19 pm

Poweruser,

Where is this frog country anyway?

Mouthwash can help the stinky mouth people. I prefer just to stand a meter or two away. <img border="0" alt="[Crazy]" title="" src="graemlins/1eyecrazy.gif" />

And yet another idea: there are always the Waddeneilanden you can move to.

Not a lot of people, but a lot of wind, hence keep your mouth closed. <img border="0" alt="[Grin]" title="" src="graemlins/1hihi.gif" />

djstormrider · Post by **djstormrider** » Fri Jul 26, 2002 12:45 am

<blockquote>quote:<hr />Originally posted by stogie21:
 <blockquote>quote:<hr /><hr /></blockquote>Yeah... I thought about moving to New Zealand ;-)[/qb]<hr /></blockquote>i heard they have one of the strictest immigration policies of any country in the world. they are up there with japan...[/QB][/QUOTE]

Really? Maybe Australia then... ;-)

x_bruce · Post by **x_bruce** » Fri Jul 26, 2002 12:56 am

I wanted to move to NZ as well but my friend in Aukland said unless they really need people with specific skills in the job market it's very hard to get a work visa let alone move there.

OTOH there's lots of venomous creatures in NZ <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="smile.gif" />

Emerald Tablet · Post by **Emerald Tablet** » Fri Jul 26, 2002 1:13 am

hey teistert

The Haege .. i come down there almost 4 times a week .. my second home (girlfriends house) is there

do you ever go to PRDPHL (paard op hol)
my girlfriend works there <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="smile.gif" />

i often go to the sea ... just to forget about stupid computers and people.

Emerald Tablet · Post by **Emerald Tablet** » Fri Jul 26, 2002 1:19 am

<blockquote>quote:<hr /> And yet another idea: there are always the Waddeneilanden you can move to.

Not a lot of people, but a lot of wind, hence keep your mouth closed <hr /></blockquote>terrific idea ! ... i go pack my bags right away !
on second thought ....... australia would be better i guess <img border="0" alt="[Love]" title="" src="graemlins/1love.gif" /> <img border="0" alt="[Love]" title="" src="graemlins/1love.gif" /> <img border="0" alt="[Love]" title="" src="graemlins/1love.gif" />

kevvvvv · Post by **kevvvvv** » Fri Jul 26, 2002 2:05 am

I can't believe I read every word of this thread.

It's like the book of everything ... these lives ... I'm amazed <img border="0" alt="[Crazy]" title="" src="graemlins/1eyecrazy.gif" /> <img border="0" alt="[Love]" title="" src="graemlins/1love.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="smile.gif" />

who are we