Xoxos unbound: Steam, Models, Talent

[Amberience]

He's paid his dues.

The cheque is in the mail.

[Amberience]

Sorry, it's just that I left my xoxosaurus in Figi, kinda need to remove this shrapnel from my medulla oblongata before I can fly again to go back and kill the mad ape that stole it in the first place.

[xoxos]

I think it's about getting past desire by satisfying all criteria for novelty and thereby eliminating all the (destructive) social settings/mechanisms that desire creates.

hmm.. victory by acquiescence.. erm.. given the propinquity for manufacture of novelty, or stupid vocabulary.. rethink?? :shrug: i'm thinking this technique is more a way to think of yourself as not collapsing

it's hard/pointless for me to say anything, really.. i went outside the other morning, a bird in a tree clearly says "your sister's pregnant.. it's a boy" and my mother receives a postcard from my 'father' (the ex-military psychic) that afternoon feat. a little bird saying "enough already!"

but that's how it has been with me for years.. *my* *daily* *experience* my father sends postcards (from out of state, postmarked ~2 weeks ago) that summate the days activity. perhaps it's the only way he's got to express his daily experience..

can you feel me on that? can you audience my statement w/o immediately discarding it as nonsense?

my mother is a f**king witch. she made me bite my tongue half off.

i can't f**k around with people living in a 'normal world' who are concerned about i dunno - cars or whateva. how can they even f**k around with me? how can they even f**k around with me? "oh, here's that crazy fool who can hear the universe speak.. fuuuuck that.."

my daily experience is what 'the average civilised person' is generally 'taught' to consider utter nonsense.. so when i speak the truth of my experience, i'm just a f**king madman.

well thank you.

yet.. at the same time.. this portal of free conventional articulation we call vst technology is direly populated.. patrolled (....roooutinelyyyy...) by various personalities..

can you begin to wonder why it's so important for so many to be here so regularly, interjecting their memetics, making sure there's some semantic representation of thought type-n?

now.. i've been busted down from someone making machines that sing words from the cosmos to wiping gummy bears off the floor of a movie theatre (erm.. think '1984' for my perspective on movie theatres..) and only using a computer over my mother and her man's continuous chatter concerning erections and kitty cat farts.

it's hardly conducive to concentrated mental effort here..

..i've gone from someone attempting to interject some modicum of non-controlled/referential media to someone getting f**ked up the ass by social convention.

see and understand that. what they did to me. it's all recorded here - the months of having my memetic limbs chopped off.

they castrated me.

and wait - it's not funny, because i don't mean it like it's a funny thing, i mean it like they seriously took my life - my articulative mental properties - and fucknig severed them, one by one, until i am completely unable to accomplish anything 'meaningful' -

and when people *need* to do that to someone - dunt matter who - it aint a f**king joke, kay?

THIS IS YOUR SOCIETY - THIS IS YOUR SPECIES - THIS IS YOUR PLANET - WHERE YOU LIVE - and this is what's happened!@

learn about what's going on where you are - what's really going on.

you *seriously* think this culture is the more effective method for thrills? that's how it got to be this way, everyone all together, thinking the same shit, all tied to the same resources?

god help you, humans. spare a thought for your souls, because the day comes nearer.

and that's what i ___ have ___ to say. ! thank you :)

[cptgone]

xoxos, cool down man, stop that train of thoughts!

take it easy.

you're jumping to paranoid conclusions. know that you do not know. you're a man. men are ignorant. many of the greatest minds have driven themselves mad in pursuit of a trompe l'oeille.

stop that train of thoughts.

[topaz]

oh dear, now you are asking for serious trouble.

xoxos, cool down man, stop that train of thoughts!

[pHz]

or better still find another on to jump on ... dont get dragged down into dogma / convention when its the very thing you rail against ...

slainte rob

[kaden]

I think it's appropriate to quote the inspirational words of John Whorfin:

"Home is for where you hang your hat"

and of course

"Character is what you are in the dark"


I don't know why.

K

[xoxos]

you're jumping to paranoid conclusions.

..and you assert this based on... ???

..to reiterate again...

here is one implicated set of FACTS

a young girl, ~18 (i'm 35.. get that.. 35..) proposes marriage to me at the supermarket..

(she did this by sticking her right hand in my face, ring finger extended, and said 'no mujer..')

..she then followed me around the neighborhood for ~1 month, eg. by sitting in my neighbors' back yard at the patio table and holding discourse with me, with me politely but adamantly declining..

..indian dude called tomahawk used to come and beat on garbage cans outside my house at all hours of the morning (so it'd be spooky, y'know?) to try and intimidate me..

..one morning, #am i went for a walk, there she is, following me down the street with him a few feet behind her... she tremulously moans.. "i sinnng..." at me..

...one can only imagine him insisting that she sing something at me, and her being witlessly afraid to produce anything else.. what the f**k is he thinking.. 35 year old guys just assume 18 year old girls flock to them because... ...they're not attempting to seduce them for the purpose of ripping off the gear?

..a week later, cop cars up and down the street, he's locked up, she's dead

soooo... this didn't happen?

anything else not happen, cap'n?

you making up reality now???

this is all motherfucking real. a dead girl because i wouldn't allow her to seduce me.

are you f**king nuts, i'm paranoid??

erm.. about ignorance..

eat it, sir.

we can go on to other events if you'd like, but again, i'd like to remind you that.. just as similarly as i have no proof (unless anyone would like to research the police reports under my name filed this year) that you similarly have no motherfucking proof that it's a bunch of shit, so where the hell are you coming up with "i'm obviously wrong" because..

because what.. people are actually really nice to each other??

ha. ha. ha.

get your studio ripped off and had to give the police report while the dudes across the street use your gear to make tracks lately and the cops are more interested in making fun of you having a dismantled toaster you were in the middle of fixing than actually being concerned with the theft lately?

tried to code for months and had your neighbors constantly 'assault' you (i'll spare you repeating the details again..) so as to make concentration, any sleep lengthy enough to lead to rest, et c. impossible lately??

had any strangers come up to you and tell you your name and accuse you of putting a girl in a wheelchair, again and again and again lately so you can't even get a job making sandwiches but only being subjected to the horrendous 'propaganda house' environment just to mock you in their total control of your society lately?

bitten through your own tongue by having your body turned against you by it's creator lately?

have you had to put up with any of this shit lately? has any of this stuff happened to you lately so you can tell me how my shit is lately?

don't f**king insult me in my (and her, and well, your, ultimately) misfortune man. can you at least not do that?

the hypocrisy of telling me i don't know when you sure as f**k...

come on

[WoJ]

indian? dead girl?









...???

[vurt]

dawns highway,bleeding,ghosts crowd the young childs fragile eggshell mind...

[arke]

dead girl because of you? something like that has happened to everyone but nobody wants to notice or will notice even if it spits them in the face. its not conformant, its loony, so it must not be true.

[kaden]

Actually, nothing even *remotely* like that has ever happened to me. And I get out a lot.

K

[GypsyJazz]

Looks like drug psycosis to me.

Xoxos....the lesson to be learned here is:
To get ahead in this world you ned a strong foundation.
That includes stable relationships and a good secure
home base .

Get the fundamentals right and the rest will follow.

You can't expect to live the way you were without
consequences.

In the end it all comes down to you.
You are responsible for your life.
No one else.

[arke]

Actually, nothing even *remotely* like that has ever happened to me. And I get out a lot.

K

because you subconsciously dont see it, but its there. think outside the box. most humans have this odd habit of ignoring severe non-conformancy.

in this world, you cant have a strong foundation. such a thing doesnt exist, you just have to now how to keep things afloat that are.

[nuffink]

He's paid his dues.

The czech is being inhaled.