it did owever sound lost and in despair which to be honest is where i think you are really and understandably so in this situation
right of the things listed in the first post this is the most important
yes you have to stay there its your home f**k all the other reasons
right so now what can we do?
how much exactly is your landlord after,if you dont wanna answr i will of course understand but im just tryna think on my feet while im typing so dont take any of it to heart either.
but in this instance i am being serious too,no jokes here i f**ked up enough last time so just at least let me try to help out here and well you know.