My musicality is dead

[NeoKortex88]

Now I really really tried to make some but I don't have any ideas and mostly I just stared at screen with this tiny "iiiiiiiiiiiiii" sound ringing in my ears

do you have tinnitus?

[robotmonkey]

What can I do

Don't know if this has already been suggested but it's kind of obvious that you need to buy more gear. Lot's of it.

[chk071]

Yeah, i suggested it on page 1.

[jancivil]

This word 'inspiration' seems to be problematic. I don't really know what it is which isn't present at any given time, but I suppose it's like that for me for several reasons: 1) it seems to be elusive because it's supposed to be so special, confer 'divine inspiration'; 2) as though there is supposed to come ex nihilo as opposed to the product of work, ie., the work itself is the creative act and where ideas germinate. I thought I had a 3) but it evaporated forming the first two.
But when it's 2) the product of constant work and attention to and a nurturing of the means to create, 1) may be revealed as a kind of hoax.

Ok, in addition, people can suck it all out of you. It may be that you need that more than you need to create music. I don't, I actually have to be alone, I have issues. I have, however alienated a partner with the basic 'Not now, I'm working.' one or three too many times, which was addressed quite well above I think.

[robotmonkey]

Yeah, i suggested it on page 1.

Then it is confirmed to be TRUE.

[Distorted Horizon]

I just spent a week at the Canary islands.. I think it really sparkles some ideas

[vurt]

yeah, steal some canarys melody.
poor little yellow birds wont see a dime!

its deep forest all over again!

[bulevardi]

This word 'inspiration' seems to be problematic. I don't really know what it is which isn't present at any given time,

Yes, it's available, it's like an invisible stream of radiowaves in the air. Just pull out your antennas and you'll receive inspiration.

I need to have a clear mind first though... when I'm too tired, it's not working. I'm always too tired btw...

I don't, I actually have to be alone, I have issues.

We all have issues.

[Deep Purple]

Sometimes I don't really care if I am inspired or not (assuming that inspiration means composing or improvising something new), as I can always just sit down and play something, anything. I really don't care if I'm just noodling or even making odd sounds that make me feel happy.

Today would be a good example, as I spent about 30 minutes trying to iron out some of the wrinkles in my embouchure for trumpet - I'm really not good at some note transitions as there's a corresponding embouchure change with a fingering change, and I feel satisfied on a day like today when it seems that I've improved my playing in some small way by the time I put the instrument down.

[vurt]

has anyone suggested a big bag of weed?

[el-bo (formerly ebow)]

has anyone suggested a big bag of weed?

In terms of creativity it's a double-edged sword

[vurt]

yeah but at least he wont remember if hes done any music or not.
problem solved.

[Distorted Horizon]

has anyone suggested a big bag of weed?

Still illegal in Finland so costs too much. Though I bought CBD oil which seems to help me focus a bit. Also noticed that a track I've been working for few months in tiny snippets it total crap so I deleted it... Continued with next track that has some real potential, when I have time to it

[vurt]

we do not learn if we do not fail

[el-bo (formerly ebow)]

yeah but at least he wont remember if hes done any music or not.
problem solved.