Imposter Syndrome and lack of musical production

[dayjob]

7 states have drawn up laws barring me from dancing

is that you Elaine?

[Hink]

you flatter me, I am know where near that good

[revvy]

I don't get imposter syndrome in music I get it in work.

[zerocrossing]

simple definition

Imposter syndrome can be defined as a collection of feelings of inadequacy that persist despite evident success. 'Imposters' suffer from chronic self-doubt and a sense of intellectual fraudulence that override any feelings of success or external proof of their competence

I have been told by doctors, therapists and counselors that I can be self sabotaging due to a fear of success...what is fear of success but Imposter Syndrome, I rarely finish anything.

Does anyone (else) feel this may hinder their musical production?

I wonder what THE REAL HINK WOULD THINK ABOUT IT!?

I think I’m pretty self aware of my skills and shortcomings. I’ll never be a virtuoso in terms of playing, but I can write a catchy tune and some clever lyrics. What I was blind to was what the music industry was. Or maybe I should say, what I was outside my music skills.

I’m:

Bullish!t intolerant. I’m a terrible leader because I like to cut to the chase and just address things head on without regard to diplomacy, I also hate when people try to be diplomatic towards me. Just state your issue and let’s get to work on resolving it.

A homebody. We never traveled when I was a kid. Too broke. As soon as bands I was in started traveling a bit, I hated every moment of it. I still hate going on vacations, for the most part.

My favorite part of playing music is experimental improvisation and collaboration. This doesn’t really end up making a sellable product.

A poor businessperson. I hate all the logistics of getting gigs, dealing with transportation, ticket pricing, etc.

In retrospect, I probably should have moved to Nashville or LA and tried to work for a label as a songwriter/producer and did music playing for pleasure, like I do now. Instead, I switched to Graphic Design and UI/UX work, which is more of a sure thing in terms of paying bills. So now when I play, I’m never bothered by not ending up with a product other than my own satisfaction. I think I’d like to play with other people again, but at this point in my life, I’m so inundated with work and family stuff that I really don’t know where it would fit in. Maybe when my daughter’s off to college I’ll find some other fossils and form a little project for fun. Until then, I’m pretty happy noodling about with my audio loopers and sequencers.

[Hink]

IThe real Hink? I think that's the closest I have ever been to reality