I Hate The Sound Of Synths

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Hi Scott

[TribeOfHǫfuð]

Yeah, hi. I am listening too. Know that there are people feeling like that, but even more near the edge. Was at my guitar mate's apartment yesterday. He lives in a more burdened city than I. He told me that the day before they had a guy screaming from his apartment in 8 hours before the police finally arrived. He treatened to jumb his window though it is only on the second floor. Though there were chances he would break something, it is hard to imagin that he would die from it. So, they came with reinforcements (10 cops or so) and a negotiator. So, you are not alone, and some are even more desparate. Don't go there. Stay with us away from the border. I cannot do much either but listen, and that I do.

[kvotchin]

Hang in there, bud. I’ve been living with depression for many years (since diagnosis, that is, and likely a bunch prior).

Seeking help is important. As is keeping up with maintenance on various fronts (health, social, creative, financial, and so on). Therapy, of course - and this can include all kinds of things for some, such as meditation, being in touch with nature, etc. Having plans for the future, and sticking to them, even just tiny steps, one at a time.

I’m sure you’ve heard all this before. But I am at least saying it from the PoV of someone who has such a condition, and is doing not too terribly, generally speaking.

Please be kind to yourself. Do the good stuff. Seek help.

[Freaqpeak]

Please consider medication such as SSRI...
it has helped me since the 20s. No real side effects except I last longer in bed (which for me is only a plus)...... of course medications and side effects are personal. To be honest my creativity (which for me always comes from "darker places"..) is lower but my life has become "liveble" and i never go to the lowest bottom anymore. Without medication it takes 2 months and then my brain (and body) just dont want to do anything, everything feels pointless. So for ME the meds are life saving.. dont judge every medication as bad just because one person had bad experiences.

Also my big brother had scizophrenia and took his life when i was 12 as well...... i would never ever take suicide as long as my family is alive. I was the one who found him and told my parents to call the ambulance. Never ever would I let my loved ones endure that again...

Please consider CBT and medication in combination. And be care ful. Be kind to yourself.

[THE INTRANCER]

I cycled over 18 miles (round trip) today to see my psychologist...9 miles takes about an hour by road, whilst it use to take about an hour and a half. Physically, I'm in pretty good shape now, my calf muscles have literally doubled in size and are pretty much pure muscle and skin. I climb steep hills regularly I find, which burns fat and lowers the pain threshold in subsequent outings. I'm never out of breath but do stop to ease the pain of the saddle and drink.

My psychologist was interested in the psychosis thing to do with my listening to synths, she doesn't think I need to take any medication.

....To end on a sad note...

I lost one of my friends I've known since he was a kid in my village who tragically fell off the edge of a cliff in the past few days. Nobody knows if it was an accident or suicide but it seems that he was alone, and it was after 11pm at night. I've known the family for almost 40 years. He was just 25 with a happy future ahead for him. He was one of my followers on soundcloud known a Jimmy Thomson. His Uncle had been helping me with my issues and providing transport to the hospital, and to find that it was his nephew which had a huge search and rescue team out looking for him and helicopters too, has stunned me and the community in which I live. It seems surreal, it is surreal. He has over 1700 friends on FB... and going to a funeral with where my head has been in thinking about suicide is a rather perplexing and emotional place to be now... I don't know if a suicide note was left, but it's been reported that there wasn't any suspicious circumstances. Although it's well known that there are dangerous cliff's in my area, incidents like this are very rare. It's all a bit of a strange time...