I'm an occasional synth twiddler who would like to improve his "track-making" skills, but always ends up with unfinished song structures... Due to frustration in the process... I'd like to make melodic electronic tracks (John Carpenter/ Tangerine Dream) that usually rely on drums,bass arp, pad and melody.
Being primarly an acoustic guitar player, I've got no troubles at all with my typical "craft" :
I start with 4 bars, and slowly develop them until I have a structure. It's so straightforward.
But when creating music in a DAW (Cub) somehow I go crazy....
"Where should I start ?
Should I create a midi or instrument track ?
Which channel ?
Wait, let's put reverb on a send ...
Let me record this keys part....oh, man, Cuby ate the first chord ! Should I hard-quantize everything ?
Uhmm maybe I should just write my parts with the mouse....
Yeah, good job making everything sound so mechanical ..
Let's try retrospective record then..... Cool ...I'll keep this take (even if the first chord is missing lol) "
This is my typical mindset..... The thing that I despise the most is seeing the music I'm recording "written" in lines on the arranger screen.... It gives me terrible performance anxiety for some reason

Does anyone relate to this feelings ?
I've tried Reaper but its midi features felt a bit clunky and limited.....